He wasn't supposed to find out. Or...he was, but not like this. I'm not sure how I would have eventually ended up telling him, but not like this.

And now he's angry, and he wants to leave, and I don't want him to leave. He's my friend, and I've just...gotten used to having him there. And without him, the apartment's going to be quiet, and I'll ( Read more... )

Nothing. All that for bloody nothing. And then, I let the guy go. I mean, if I had kept going, the guy would have been tortured into insanity, but I just let the one way I had to find Isa go? I'm going soft. But he wasn't going to talk, that was clear. I just need a way to find Isa. I need to make sure he's okay. He was my friend, and I don't have ( Read more... )

Seeker's good to me. He really is. It's not like I'm not grateful or anything like that. But sometimes, I wish...

I know I'm his friend. He's not just going to fuck me and then kick me out when he's sick of me...or at least, I hope he's not. But I don't think he will, anyway. It's just...it's like this. If anyone kissed Seeker now, or fucked him, I' ( Read more... )

Dear Lurline. My dream last night. Fuck ( Read more... )

Oh my god. Fuck. Fuck.

Why did I wake up?!

Fuck. Seeker wasn't supposed to see that. But even if he did, he didn't say anything about...you know. Wanting me back like that. So does that mean he doesn't want to fuck me again? I mean, we have before, a long time ago, and he seemed to enjoy it. Does he not want me anymore? I wish he had said something about it, just so I know. But now, I'm ( Read more... )

It strikes me as silly that even after all this time, some people in the Resistance still think I'm a traitor. I mean, after all this time! It's like they're blind or something. Well, not all of them. Just Torrent, apparently. He had the nerve to come and accuse me of...it's my fault, but still, hearing it from someone made it different. And ( Read more... )

I had always said I would protect him. Always. It was the only thing I could give him. I would be there for him and I would keep anyone from hurting him. I promised that because I thought that I could do it. I would always, always be there.

And when it came down to it, I wasn't. I can never protect the people I say I will. I've never been able to. ( Read more... )

Hello Puppy! Did you miss me?

You've been a very bad dog. A certain Jeff come to mind? You say that I'm a murderer. Why, you're the same thing! Guess what they say is right, hmm? Family really does stick together, thick and thin, and when it comes down to it, you're just like me. There's a monster inside you, just the same as me. And now, you don't ( Read more... )

Shit. Has anyone seen James for the past few hours? He said he was going out to get food and I haven't seen him come back yet. He wouldn't take this long. Would he?

Someone please just tell me I'm being paranoid.

Shit shit shit. I told him I would keep him safe.